My lows of 2005, 2006 shaping up to make this year better for me.

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed."

- Michael Jordan, NBA great

I don't know if you heard the saying that one event can certainly change a person's life - that it greatly affected him or her. Well, it did for me, but mine's dealt with 2 major events - one in 2005 and another in 2006. These two weren't connected or related in any way. Each are different from the other. While I do not want to personally delve into the specifics of these as well as giving the respect and privacy to those involved, I can admit here that both were extremely painful to bear emotionally as they were long term. These two were life's burdening lessons for me. I brought the best out of myself in the greatest ways possible even the sacrifices and hardships I had to do - and it wasn't enough to keep the things the way they were and being with the ones I loved so much. As this was happening, I realized that I ignored my own agendas - and even myself (on what I supposed to be doing in my life). Losing it all - really hurts, so bad. Not the best feeling in the world, believe me. As I suffered emotionally, there were those that poured their support and I was so thankful for them coming around when the time was right. I also relied on being isolated from the rest of the world by taking walks to the woods. From there, I looked at my reflection at the ripples of water (from the lake) and flashbacked to the events that have took a toll on me. Then, I found relief. I found peace in myself. These events have shaped the new 'me' and that the old 'me' is fading away to obscurity. I am so "on-point" with things in life now and concentrating to further enhance my lifestyle with no limits and on my own terms. Things I used to do, I don't do anymore and have now made good use of my own time. And the life I took for granted, I'm reclaiming it back. In the end, this'll all make sense somehow when the greatest events start occurring one at a time perhaps to make my 2007 better. No matter what happened between me and those involved in these events, I will always love them for who they are and wish them the best in their endeavors/successes.

(Note: some of what was mentioned are correlated/connected with earlier blogs that dealt with changes, walking the woods, relationships and personal emotional pain.)